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assalamualaikum

sorry since i don't update my blog quite a long time.thanks to UTP internet.he2.i try to update if I can.but so far nothing new that i went through to share my journey with the reader.

sekarang nih,sang mentari pun lom muncul lagi di ufuk timur.wakaka..berbahasa plak!!yelah.nak sangat dapat internet laju kat UTP nih.kenala sacrifice tidur.btw,xkisah pon.it just killing two birds by one stone,just in this matter maybe three kot.huhuhu..selain dari nak guna internet yang laju.people said,early bird catch the worm.kata orang melayu,pintu rezeki tu murah kalau xtidur selepas subuh which sangat susah utk org zaman sekarang praktikkan.konpem tidur pas subuh termasuk sang kelana.haih.orang kata setiap hari perlu ada perubahan.i try to stay after subuh as long as i can.hik2.and another one bird that i kill is,since kelas kol 8 karang,so cam malas nak tidur balik.hik2

last monday i did a decision.camne nak kata ek.1st of all,i just want to say a great apologize(if there such term) to TTSian since sang kelana menarik diri di saat2 akhir.yela show esok,dahle xcukup pelakon,tetiba tarik diri plak.btw xdela tetiba pon.b4 that kalau ada yang xtau apa itu TTS ble la klik TTS.we just make a blog for anyone out there to know more about us(TTS) and our recent activities.ok,back to the story...i feel miserable about withdraw from the 2 coming shows yet i feel relief that i at least i make a decision which i comfort with and happy with.anyway ku dah lama fikir perkara ini seminggu yang lalu,just i still dont have any courage to make decision yet. in my defense for my decision,1st since dah lama tinggalkan pentas the skill quite rusty(berkarat lerrr..)-seem just an excuse right??.2nd,too much coming shows which mean a lot of commitment to give which i know i can take the pressure yet i just dont want to handle the pressure so far.as others know since ku di tahun akhir pengajian ku,projek2 telah berlambak even bau 1st week of semester.FYP(final year project),FYDP(final year design project) and projek subjek2 len.orang len boleh la kata,senior2 len boleh je sebelum ni.fine.diorang punya,itu hal diorang la.just for me,this is my future and i know which is my priority right now.and summore i don want to be blame if i cant give full commitment.it lagi menyakitkan hati and menyusahkan orang kalau kita bersetuju to give full commitment tapi at the end of the day, we can't. which in this case, kedatangan untuk berlatih which i seem it hard for me to come since i need to have a time for my project which some time there have meeting.moreover i just want to have more time with my friends,thats all..3rd reason is i join TTS is for fun,interest and my leisure.if too much pressure and constraint-why must i go ahead with all kind of stuff.thats what i found recently where some of the show is during my class and all coming show is every week,even i'm not involve directly to all the show but still,the pressure still there.too much defense right.i just don want to be like what my director said,melepaskan hingus di tepi tangga.ya,i'm agree with him which for me, i don do things just ala kadar.at least i wanna put an effort to the very best for it.to doc,ku xmerajuk..just nak ambil dari ayat artis,"saya hanya mahu berehat dan berundur diri seketika".cewwaahh..artis ke??berlakon pon ntah apa2 ntah.hehehe..and kalau saya masih diperlukan lagi untuk masa akan datang,insyaAllah kalau tiada aral dan tekanan sebegini,apa salahnya kan.my heart still with TTS.hmm..too much of defensing and crapping.

sowila for the reader.i just want to share.life is not always beautiful as we want.the sun can't shines all day.sometimes it rain,sometimes its cloudy.kena la terima kan.itulah namanya cabaran hidup.teringat salah satu blog kawanku-blog half(TTSian juga) where one of his post talkin bout making decision.yah..in this world people need to make a decision.walaupun ianya payah,makan mati emak,luah mati bapak,we still need to choose the best decision.hidup tanpa masalah dan cabaran,ur life is so lame.sebab semua itu perencah hidup.kalau kata orang tua masak lauk tanpa perencah - tasteless.so,kenala terima seadanya.teringat plak salah satu ayat Al-Qur'an,maksud dia mungkin begini "Tidaklah beriman seseorang itu sehinggalah ia diuji Allah"

oklah..since this post tribute more to TTS,so i just want to put moment that i share with TTS.thanks a lot guys,hope we still can act in one play in the future =)

my first show with TTS -QUM
jalan2 kat teluk batik
after show Asylum 50, Festival Teater Negeri Perak
we are 3rd in Festival Teater Negeri Perak
after show Jebat
bergambar bersama cheryl samad after show asylum di chancelor hall
beraya di rumah doc~
lepak2 di anjung baru rumah doc
Asylum 50 crew
Asylum lagi..di MPH
Qum di perlis sempena Majlis Sunnah Kebangsaan
brainstorming before start teater

izinku bersendirian mencari senyuman yang hilang
menghayun kaki tanpa arah tujuan
menjejak kembali erti gembira yang kian pudar

salam sang kelana d--b